Haley Morris-Cafiero is a photographer. She’s Assistant Professor and Head of Photography at the Memphis College of Art. And she’s someone who has hypothyroidism. A condition that meant when she went away to college and stopped engaging in sports as much as she once did, her weight ballooned in a drastic way. Morris-Cafiero is someone who doesn’t stress much about her appearance. She’s happy, eats well, and is not suffering from those diseases commonly associated with obesity. She’s also not dimwitted, or lacking in willpower.
Last week a FGFS reader linked us to a Salon.com article Morris-Cafiero wrote about her project Wait Watchers. This series of photographs are something I had seen before, and I was aware of the project, but without much context. When I replied to the reader to thank them for sharing I mentioned I’d seen it before and that I’d lived the experience captured in the images.
Morris-Cafiero started taking pictures of people who mock her body in public. It’s nothing overt, but it’s truly something most of these people wouldn’t do if they knew that the camera on a tripod 20 feet away was pointed at them by proxy and was snapping away. Most of these people stand a step behind Morris-Cafiero and revel in this false anonymity.
These are images of people, in a very public way, showing their disapproval for another person’s body. As if being a larger person outside gives you licence to judge them. As if you lose your autonomy.
Our Hamilton Squad Leader, Carly, and I once talked about this project months ago. Carly told me when she showed it to her dude he asked her if this happens to her. “All the time,” was her reply.
I live with social anxiety. A component of this disorder means that I’m hyper aware of the people around me, and I’m also compulsively, often irrationally, concerned with how they are perceiving me. I see what both Carly and Morris Cafiero said they have experienced all the time. This happens to me. Depending on my level of stress it can hurt and affect me deeply. Beyond that even, it’s important to note that humans are evolutionarily primed to detect if something is looking at them. Our limited peripheral vision hones in on stimuli and information that suggests that something is looking at us, so we might run away from those sets of eyes should they want to eat us. We’ve all experienced that feeling of someone staring at us even though our back is turned.
We feel your eyes on us. Do you realize our eyes are on you?
So why is this a Lookin’ Good Girl column this week? Maybe I just wanted to share our experiences, or wanted to let people know we plan to stare back. Or, mainly I just wanted to tell you you’re lookin’ good.
We interact with a lot of our readers and it’s the highlight of our days. You’re all so bright and loving. So talented and humble. You’re also the best company a girl could ask for. With you we can change perceptions. Shine some light on all the BS and have some damn fun.